I really want to join the army
After my baccalaureate, I returned to gendarmerie. The 3 months of school were not easy, I am a rather shy and reserved girl, who lacks authority. So I had a lot of trouble to assert myself and make me respect. After my training, I returned to unity. My colleagues and my entourage told me that they did not see me in this job. Do you think I'm right in going down a path that may not be mine? But I really want to join the army despite what people can think of me. Viski, age 19
What strikes me in your testimony is your great determination.
You decide after your baccalaureate to return to gendarmerie. As we enter the orders. With faith and conviction that this is your vocation.
You say you have a hard time asserting yourself, which did not prevent you, despite the difficulties encountered and the reserves of your entourage to have completed the three months of training and held good for a whole year in a unit. I find that at the age you had, to hold a year in the conditions you describe is a great strength or even a great maturity.
What is very interesting about your story is the story you were told about what a gendarme should be. If I read you correctly, a gendarme must not be shy or reserved, he must have authority. And you had trouble recognizing yourself in this story of gendarme. Tell yourself that there is not only one story of constable and that there is surely one that looks like you. You are 19, you have plenty of time to assert yourself, to gain in confidence and authority. Besides, your last experience has certainly already made you progress on this path.
After returning to civilian life, you miss the army. You have set yourself a new challenge, come back as a secretary, but dread reliving a new military formation. Things are different today. You do not target the same job and you know what to expect so what to prepare. You have identified what is important to you and which motivates you in this way, that is, the sense of hierarchy and duty.
So, if you really want to join the military, you're right to "get on with it", keeping in mind that the values that guide you can also be expressed in other sectors. 'activities.